Friday, October 17th, 2008
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8:26 am - "Everyone Walks Alone"
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But that doesn't make it fun...
Anyways, I think I'm stressed out at the moment. I spend way too much time in front of the computer these days. I mean part of it is the whole job search thing but I just don't seem to have the energy to do much more.
It's not just the idleness that is getting to me but rather the fact that I don't see people much now. Now, I spend time with my friends as much as I always have but I don't see as many people. No work means that I spend the better portion of the day alone. While that is a good thing sometimes for me it gets old after awhile.
I don't know what I want.
current mood: stuff
current music: "Mountain Halo" by The Appleseed Cast
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Thursday, October 2nd, 2008
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12:16 am - "The more corrupt the State, the more it legislates." -Tacitus
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They should let the market correct itself. Legislation rarely fixes anything.
That is all.
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Wednesday, August 27th, 2008
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6:50 pm
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Still no work. Tucson job market sucks. I mean wow does it suck. Three months almost and no interview. Oh well. I'll manage.
On another note other parts of my life are looking up. more later.
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Saturday, May 10th, 2008
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6:23 pm - Personality Stuff.. (ie bored)
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Friday, April 25th, 2008
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1:04 am
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Well been about a month since my last post. Not much to say I guess. Doing well all in all.
Back to doing things I like doing. And being motivated again. Done with being worried about what I'm going to do. I just do it and be done with it. So really back to where I was about a year ago. Pretty happy with where my life it right now. Just taking it one day at a time b/c thats the only way days come. One at a time.
On another note I plan on starting up Kendo. Some physical activty would do me good and honestly I've always had an interest. I loved fencing when I did it at the UofA and I liked Taekwondo but I think I want something more sport like but still martial oriented. That brings me to Kendo. We'll see how it goes but I imagine it will be a good thing.
Thats about it I guess.
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Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
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5:04 am
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...and the patterns repeat...
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Friday, March 14th, 2008
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9:09 am
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Explosions in the Sky Tonight. :)
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Thursday, December 27th, 2007
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1:54 am
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SO, stuff happened and it was awesome.
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Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
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2:35 pm
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So, I really need to get more than 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I'm not sure why I can't sleep anymore. I don't take any caffiene or any other stimulants so I should be tired. And I am tired at 6pm or so but that is much to early to sleep so I stay up and around 10pm I'm wide awake again untill 4am and then its 3 hours till I have to get up. What I wouldn't give for a decent sleep scheadule. :/
On a lighter note: new user pic. lol
current mood:  bored
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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
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3:04 am - "I'll take the best of your bad moods and dress them up to make a better you."
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Now is the situation that I never know what to do. I guess take another risk? It's worked so far...
On another unrelated note: I reorganized my CD's. Back to alphabetical cross genre. I also need more media storage as the two racks I have are full of CD's and my 4th bookcase is full of videos now. Not to mention the 5 boxes of books I never unpacked. Oh and the couple hundred LP's that used to be grandparents. What to do. *sigh*
current mood:  anxious
current music: "Title Track" by Death Cab for Cutie
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Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
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3:24 am - "I'll breath in these words & push them back out."
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Things are looking up. Of course, I say this every few months between periods of apparent depression and self-loathing. Haha, I swear I'm not manic-depressive...
Anyways, got some stuff out of my system about a month ago and honestly I'm back to working on that which I want. Taking risks when needed and sometimes, just sometimes, they pay off. And thats a good thing.
current mood:  optimistic
current music: "Falling Down" by MUSE
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Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
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3:32 am
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So, I guess I haven't changed. Insteading of pacing myself to study for the GMAT I pretty much crammed at the last minute. Still, I did do pretty well so I guess go with whatcha know. I honestly shouldn't be as good at academics as I am because I have no motivation or discipline when it comes to schoolwork. that being said I do like school. >
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Thursday, September 20th, 2007
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1:55 am
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So, I went to the Evergreen Terrace Show on Tuesday. They were playing with Strung Out at The Rock. I hadn't been to a hardcore show in so long I forgot how amazing fun they are. I also ran into a friend I hadn't seen in like 2 years. So, that was really fun. I like how some people you can not see for years and when you get together with them its like you just saw them last week.
So, it looks like I might get sucked into getting a myspace just to keep in touch with another group of friends. Damn, why can't they all pick on thing and have all my friends just use that. Do I really need a LJ, Facebook AND myspace. Is that excessive?
Hmmm... on a different note. Things are looking up now. Kinda happy with what could be happening in my life. Didn't think i'd say that given all thats happened.
oh, and new Pinback album=amazing. On my player non stop. *smiles*
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Monday, September 17th, 2007
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12:02 am
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So, seeing some people I know decided that they want to "live" a little I have come to this conclusion.
Being an adult is not about doing what you want but rather doing what you don't want to do when no one is making you do it.
There are a lot of things that I do that I don't want to do. I do them because I know they are best for me.
I think its less mature to simply do whatever you want because you can. Its the self imposed limits that signify maturity.
current music: "Steadier Footing" by Death Cab for Cutie
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Friday, September 14th, 2007
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12:25 am - "Saving all my loving for someone who's loving me."
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What is it that I want? Is it different than what ii was a month ago? six months? a year? Not really. I suppose some details have changed but it's still basically the same thing.
I guess I just want to be with someone that wants to be with me.
The problem is you can't go to a store and pick up a relationship and there are no instructions on that sort of thing.
And it doesn't help that every female I know is in a relationship or is my ex-girlfriend.
Seriously, what the hell? How can I not meet single people? Were do they hide?
That being said. I am pretty fine with myself now. It's more of a generic want now. The specific want has pretty much faded. I mean i'm still sad but it just doesn't hurt anymore. So I can actually sleep now which is a bonus.
Bah, this sounded way to much like my older posts on my previous journal. Not trying to be depressed and I'm really not. But sometimes i have to get my thoughts in a more tangible fashion.
current mood: clarity
current music: "To Bring Our Own End" by Joshua Fit for Battle
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Tuesday, September 11th, 2007
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6:59 pm
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< rant >
So, as I drove into work I was curious why all the flags were at halfmast. I had to be told it was b/c of it being 9/11. I suppose that is fitting. We still remember Pearl Harbour (well some do).
But it is unfortunate that those deaths brought the nation the most restrictions on civil liberties since the New Deal.
I was against going to war from the beginning. The only hesitation I have from supporting a complete withdrawl is the fact that we did make commitments to the people in Iraq and Afganistan. To just leave would be breaking our word and soiling our (already soiled) "good name" as a nation. In the end I think we owe those people our help IF they want it. If they want us gone then we ought to leave and take any who want asylum with us.
Either way we need to following the traditional American policy of avoiding foriegn entanglements from now on.
I mean we need to focus on what is important here first. Preserving our own natural rights and trying to save the Constitution from both the Republicans and the Democrats.
< /rant >
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Saturday, September 8th, 2007
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7:32 pm
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I need to learn to not get so emotional.
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Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
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3:43 pm - "You're right no promises were made"
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I don't really know what I am doing. I should probably start learning from my mistakes. But I probably won't. >< So I guess I ought to just takes things one day at a time and see where they end up because I can't change what a feel/think so i guess i will wait for time to change that or not. Maybe leaving things to fate? I hate the thought of not being in control of my own life. I mean it is mine and no one elses but sometimes thing are meant to be or not to be depending on the situation. I guess in cases like that or rather cases like this i should adopt a wait and see approach.
current mood: torn
current music: "By(e) Now" by Statistics
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Monday, August 27th, 2007
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3:20 am - "Seeking Sanctuary in the Written Word..."
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I suppose i have decompressed enough to put it down in words. The end of it is that i am out of a job. Not immediately but nonetheless i will be out of work sooner rather than later and not of my volition. How does this happen? Well, when your company goes bankrupt they really can't afford to pay you any longer. 'tis unfortunate but true.
First Magnus is over. done. gone. Sure the body is still moving. Or rather it is being moved. The courts take awhile to legal pronounce death but what is, is irregardless of the legal state.
So, now what? I prided myself that whatever may happen i still am successful career-wise. I mean i support myself rather well and in decent luxury. nothing over the top but i live in a safe neighborhood, have a nice apartment, drive my own car and have enough to eat and enough money to splurge on non-necessities.
In otherwords a perfect (fiscal) life.
Now that's gone. I guess that's what i get for taking such things for granted? or maybe simply the result of my pride? Of course that line of thought is prideful in excess. In reality this happened regardless of my own existence. Mere mortal men are crushed beneath lady fortune's (or in this case the mortgage industry's) wheel.
I guess the saying is true that bad things come in three's. I hope that is true because then i'm done.
Of course some recent events lead me to believe that bad things come in fours but that not the point.
Quite frankly, despite my efforts to be positive right now, i'm done. I really can't care about much anymore. I guess you can only fail so often at so many things.
That being said i'm trying to make the most of it because i know i have been through worse and i can survive through anything because i refuse to give up living. To do that would be complete cowardice.
current mood:  blank
current music: "Woodwell" by Saetia
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Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
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9:04 am
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It seems that everything that could possibly go wrong in my life... has.
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